The Unpardonable Sin
Perceiving from your invaluable publication that you have
many correspondents who are among the tried and tempted followers of the
Lamb, and having a good hope through grace, and through grace alone, that
I am one of them, although I suffer hard and bitter persecution from Satan
and my own corrupt nature, the working of which, at times, is so strong,
that I am almost driven to distraction, but I bless God Jacob shall conquer
Esau, though the conflict last long; I say, this being my case, I am desirous
of writing to you upon a subject which has for some time occupied my thoughts,
and which, I fear, many of the weak and timid ones of God's family are
sorely and grievously troubled about, namely, the sin against the Holy Ghost.
It is now upwards of two years since I was first taught to cry for mercy, and during that time I have suffered much by the conflict between the two natures; but I am now convinced that I must wait God's time for deliverance, as I feel that nothing but a precious Christ will satisfy me, now that God has given the appetite; and bless his holy name for that. But I will not take up your valuable space by writing a long letter about the troubles and trials, ups and downs, hopes and fears which I am daily the subject of, but will conclude by saying that your publication appears to just suit my present spiritual condition, as would also dear Mr. W. preaching suit the Satan-hunted and harassed ones of the flock of Christ, who are clear to God as the apple of his eye; but of this we can be assured only by the mighty power of God the eternal Spirit.
That the Lord may bless you abundantly is the wish of the poor worm now addressing you.
London, Nov. 10, 1842.